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Of course you have the obvious, it is not possibel for people to just travel whereever they want to go. however, my current situation and how the virus has affected my relationship goes all the way back to February this year.

February 2020

Earlier this year, Laziz and I were still happily living in Korea together. We had a small apartment and both had a job. I had three jobs actually, haha. Besides working at a bar, I was also teaching English at two schools. Safe to say, we ‘had it all’. We were happy, living our lives. But as you might know, the virus already struck South Korea in February, right after it started in China. Due to the huge amount of panic the virus caused, I lost both my teaching jobs. Schools were closing and not opening anytime soon. I still had my job at the bar, but customers stopped coming and eventually we had to close down as well.

May 2020

After me losing all my jobs, we were on a tighter budget. However, the worst was yet to come. When May was approaching in the fastest pace ever, we realized I could no longer stay in South Korea. My visa was expiring soon, and in order to be able to stay, I had to leave and re-enter the country. But South Korea had closed all their borders, and returning would not be possible. I had to book a flight to the Netherlands before May 18.

So we gave up our apartment and moved out on May 6. We stayed in a nice AirBnb in Hongdae for a couple of days. The timing could not be worse, because Laziz had his exams. So we did not do anything really, only studying and me just playing Animal Crossing. 

I bought a return ticket to return on August 2nd, not expecting the virus to keep its grip on the world for so long. With the mindset of me returning after a few months, I left a lot of stuff behind and also the goodbye was not that emotionally loaded as it would have been knowing we could not see each other for over half a year.

Now

The return flight to Seoul got cancelled in June and South Korea still has its borders closed to me as we speak. So I have no idea when I can see Laziz again. I struggle a lot with how to deal with this situation and truly don’t know how long I can handle the situation like this. All I can hope for, is South Korea to open their borders to me and my new job to be kind to let me travel if possible.


Looking at my Instagram, it is no surprise that I love cake and other sweets. One of my favorite places to visit in Seoul to get myself a piece of cake is Doré Doré. Personally, I love their red velvet cake the most. And guess, what, I have no pics of that flavour in this blog post, ahaha. 

During this visit to Doré Doré in Gangnam, Seoul, my boyfriend and I enjoyed a chocolate and banana cake. We had a kiwi smoothie drink and a cold chocolate drink. 

For as long as I can remember, I am obsessed with designer bags. However, they can be quite expensive. That is also the reason why I don't own any designer bags such as Gucci and Chanel, but a bit more affordable brands like my Rebecca Minkoff. 

When I started this bag obsession and started buying them, I mostly went for bigger bags. But lately I am going crazy for cute smaller ones. Around two years ago, I got this beauty from Rebecca Minkoff. I was not the biggest fan of golden hardwear, but each day I am loving it more. 

Let's start off by saying that Starbucks is a bit expensive, haha. Safe to say it is not a place for me to get a drink on the regular. So whenever I do go to Starbucks, I sure have my favorites!

My ultimate favorite drink would be Chai Latte. It is a lovely and spiced tea that you can drink both hot and cold when you need to cool down a bit. It has cinnamon, clove and other lovely warming spices in comibation with steamed milk and a bit of foam. (Calories are 240 and there are 42 grams of sugar in one drink).

My second and last favorite (sorry, I don't like coffee so my options are limited) is the S' mores Frappuccino. It is a milk chocolate sauce, with a creamy blend of vanilla, marshmallow-infused whipped cream, coffe (optional!), and moreeee marshmallow whiped cream on top with some graham cracker crumbles. DAMNN, who can say no to that? (Side info, the drink contains 480 calorie and 65 grams of sugar). 

After four lonely months without my boyfriend, filled with uncertainty, anxiety, stress and just the overall feeling of having lost everything… I became numb to happiness.  

You might think to yourself; what does that mean? Well, it simply means that I don’t feel happy anymore. Nothing is truly giving me joy and the feeling I have when I ‘like’ a situation also fades as soon as that moment is over. 

 

Not only does this make me sad, it also makes me ungrateful. Or at least, come across ungrateful. Last week, I bought an amazing new Macbook Pro for myself. High storage volume, a touch bar, space grey and fast. My old Macbook is totally at the end of its life, so it was a needed purchase. However, I felt no joy. Another story… For work and job interviews I have to travel a lot these days. My income is super low, so my parents decided to jump in a little and help me out a bit. Literally the sweetest thing ever, cause of course they don’t have to. But honestly? I felt no joy, no happiness about them helping me financially as a gift and support. I truly did not feel it. Also... I got hired for a job last week, after looking for a job for months. But still, I just did not feel it.

 

These two events, and a few other things that happened, made me realize that I am now apparently and truly numb to feel any happiness. Being aware of this also makes me feel even more awful actually. 

 

I truly believe that there is only one thing that can grand me happiness: being with my boyfriend again. Until that time, I must accept the fact that I will not be happy anymore.

So for the past four months I have been in a long distance relationship with my lovely man. So no hugs, kisses or gifts... At least, I would think so. However, when I went shopping recently and fell in love with this dress, he decided to get it for me. 

When back in Korea we loved to buy each other clothes, accessoires, food and other things because we know it makes the other person happy. Also, when I would be shopping and saw something I knew he would like, I would get it. Same for him. 

Now that we are apart, it is less romantic. He transfered me money so I could buy the dress myself. But it is the thought about him gifting it to me that makes me happy. Each time I am wearing the dress, I think of him.

L necklace Hema | Leather jacket Zara | Dress Sting | Sneakers Vans



Lets say that I have been dreaming of a couple hanbok shoot for centuries. Hanbok is the name for the original clothes of South Korea and is still worn for important occasions, such as a wedding. Many tourists are renting these outfits to walk around the palaces in Seoul or Hanok Villages. I have done that before, but still the couple shoot was on my to do list. Finally, the moment was there...

After I have successfully convinced Laziz to do this shoot with me, he had to ask for a day off. This might sound easy, but he works seven days a week, so it was a bit of a challenge. Luckily we managed and after two days of asking around, we also found a friend to take pictures. 

We went to the Gyeongbokgung Palace and found a store nearby. There we found the cutest set of matching Hanbok outfits. Since it was mostly to make my dream come true, Laziz let me pick the look for our shoot (thanks babe). 

The shoot was so much fun and I would truly do it again! Also, I would recommend everyone who reads this to just convince your boyfriend or girlfriend as well and go for it :) My new ultimate dream would be to have a professional couple Hanbok shoot on Jeju Island. 

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